Fallen Angel

leaving ny....
05.26.2005 -- 12:08 am

so i just said goodbye to my two best friends...damn does that suck. as i'm sitting at the table, attempting not to break out into tears, the spouse comes up to me and said "i'm really going to be depressed this weekend." i take the bait and ask him why. "because it;s been a year since really cool co-worker killed himself." i kind of just sat there in shock for a moment. i just escorted my two best friends to the door (at the same time) and realised i wouldn't see my sister/godmother/favorite sibling before i leave. we are moving our child from the only home she knows. the family she's absolutly in love with. and he's depressed because someone was selfish enough to kill himself a year ago? yes, it is a reason to be a bit put out. but the timing of the statement was a bit off. when i did respond the tears just came out. i reminded him of all the things i just mentioned, then he really didn't have much to say. i dunno.

we just dropped a grand on another u-haul because my brother who thought we'ed be able to fit our stuff into his 26 footer was wrong... we got very little on there. i hope he doesn't expect us to pay for a portion of it. we now absolutly get jobs right away when we get down there. our cushion is gone. i had enough set aside to get us through a month if we needed to. now i'm unsure of two weeks. i know we could borrow the money from someone if we need to because my brother will be paying off all his debts to my family this week. but i really would like to avoid this situation. we're already so far in the hole to my mother in law, the last thing i need is to be in the hole to my family too.

one good thing did happen today. i filed my bankrupsy paperwork finally. i'll hear from the lawyer in 5-6 weeks, and i'll come up for my date to complete everything and it'll be all good. it'll kinda suck that i'm coming home so soon, but i'm going to try to arrange something for when it's nerdgurl's block party, so i can see everyone, bring the kid up so she can see everyone, and get anything we may have left behind accidently. i don't know what my employer will think, but i'm going to try to get something on a friday so i only miss one day of work. leave thursday night, come back during the day sunday.

it may be a couple of weeks before i can update again with the moving insanity and all, but i'll be back with an update from north carolina....

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